July 17, 2016
Recently I have broken away from a long-term relationship.
In the past few years, whenever we’ve been together, I’ve just felt kind of dead inside. I was not contributing much to the relationship, and was not getting much back. There was too much emphasis on appearances. Our conversations were canned…scripted. Our meals were an empty ritual. Things were old, cold, dry, stuck in the mud, and there was no changing them. We did things that way because…we’d always done them that way.
During our last few months, I’ve felt nothing. Just kind of empty. There are many good old memories, but the recent ones have been more hurtful. For the past several months, I have been preparing to break away, detaching myself. So with each meeting, I felt more and more sure.
I gave back the material possessions we had in common. I cut the ties of things we used to do together.
I feel free.
I have begun a new relationship. There, I feel fresh, new, alive. The focus is on love, peace, and joy. A much simpler relationship without so many encumbrances.
Who knows where this will go? Will we take it to the next level? Or will I eventually go back? Only time will tell.
Inner Voice 