March 16, 2019
Strangely serene
I lie here in between
not-knowing and knowing
neither coming nor going
Peacefully awaiting
the news that keeps abating
and will it change my life
and cut me like a knife
Tearless eyes stare ahead
giving in to subtle dread
will you wake me from this dream
is it really what it seems
I don’t feel agitated
or really much frustrated
because this time could be
the last of naive me
The past few days and days
and days and days and days
of ordinary normal time
is it really such a crime
This day is the dividing line
of innocence will I pine
for my life Before and After
mingles both my tears and laughter
Can they really look and see
something there inside of me
growing where it shouldn’t be
leaving me too early free
And will I join the braver throng
of those who sing the painful song
the club to which I could belong
this idea just seems so wrong
Lying here in limbo thinking
try to keep my heart from sinking
can I really pass the test
and who will take me on this quest?
Inner Voice 